So its been awhile since i blogged and i really do like to write things down so i thought it may be time i started again, and since i can not blog now about my weight loss coz im "in the family way", "up the duff" what ever you wanna call it i thought i would blog about that.
I did consider blogging about this earlier but as you will read on about the last 20weeks have not been the easiest and not something that i wanted to share at the time.
We were so ecstatic when we found out we were pregnant, 3 tests it took me to start to believe it and then also a trip to the doctor. I could not describe the feelings here on just how overjoyed we were. We went out for dinner that day as well because we were celebrating Marks new job and then we got to celebrate the miracle of life aswell. I could not keep it a secret so a few friends i contacted who had been really close to me while we were trying to conceive.
Anyway during the course of the next few weeks we had a dating scan which was awesome, we got to see our baby which looked like a smudge... hence the name.. The only thing is I know this nickname is going to stick for sometime past the birth because names like that always do... oh well.. he./she can hate me about that later... but it was your dads fault he came up with it...
But 2 days before that i had my first bleed, it a pertrfying experience. People think because i am a nurse that I know everything about everything medical but i am quickly learning that my knowledge is only as good as the experience that I live through and this is so true for pregnancy, you can think you know what it all encounters but until you experience something first hand can you truly understand it.
I was really scared but was lucky that when we went to our scan bub was dated at 6weeks and 2 days which put us back a week from where we thought we were but we also got to see the tiny and i mean tiny little heartbeat which was the best satisfaction especially after the weekend.
This same weekend included the flu with a mild tonsillitis so was put on some antibiotics which i then ended up having a really bad allergic reaction to them and ended up going to ED as i was really worried about it.
So with that out of the way.. 2 weeks later another bleed I was at work for this one and freaked out lucky enough for an awesome work colleague who packed me up and shipped me straight down to Ed even with the tears in my eyes. The girls there were great and rushed me through.. Luckily enough the Obstetric Reg on call for the Sunday was in the hospital and checked the ED list and saw the ob patient and came and saw me she scanned me and showed me my gorgeous baby and again the little heartbeat.. All good.. and even better no more bleeds from here on in.
The 12 week scan I was so excited I could not hold in the excitment I was just waiting for this scan and then i was annoucing it to the world. We had the scan on the 2nd december and the sonographer said the scan was "FINE" i took that as he saw everything he needed to see and that there was nothing wrong with my baby.So i told the world! LIER LIER PANTS ON FIRE! Kind of..
The next week after some unsettling calls from my now X-GP i went and saw my NUM (manager) at work who is also the NUM ot Maternity with what had happened the night before. She instantly got the obstetrician who had started to look after me...
INSERT.. I forgot to mention that because of my chronic thyroid condition I am actually a high risk pregnancy as I am at high risk of having a baby with IUGR(small baby)..so i fall under the hgih risk clinic at bunbury.
Back to the story... She got hold of my 1st trimester screen and came and sat with me and told me that I had come back at an increased risk of Trisomy 18 also known as Edwards Syndrome. Which is detected is not compatible with life.. Before you get upset please read on.. as this was just a risk factor.. did i just ruin the story..
we met with the senior reg obstetician the next day and she gave us the facts she did a scan which made me happy as bub was jumping up and down on my bladder no wonder i pee alot bub wont need a trampoline when he/she comes out as its already had one.. my bladder.
The next day i got a phone call from a midwife who is a good friend asking me if I was ok.., luckily enough my awesome mother had come down from Perth to be with me as I was upset and Mark was still working so she was there, she wanted to know if I was ok after the fact that at the 12 week scan they saw no nasal bone... NO WHAT? I was really distressed as I was not told this the day before.. it was not stated no nasal bone but inconclusive ... We had been referred the day before to KEMH to have a more detailed scan as globals down here are crap in comparison and +/- an amniocentisis if we needed it.
I went through all the stages of grief I had planned what I was going to do, I had even gone as far as to read the grief and loss brochure from KEMH. It was a horrible 3 weeks of waiting..
we had to wait and wait and wait over christmas aswell which made the festive season really hard. But on the 29th december we had our scan and we got the all clear we saw beautiful pictures of our baby and he/she is all perfect there were no soft signs of edwards syndrome.. so we choose not to have the amnio..
Here i would really like to thank my friends and family who really came around me to support me especially Natalia she was a great support.
I forgot to mention though christmas day i did receive a present from my unborn baby i felt the first flutters it waas awesome just like butterflies like they say, i then would lie down all the time waiting for it to happen again and it did like 6 days later the day after our scan but it wasnt a flutter it was more of a soft kick.
The last 4 weeks have been awesome. My baby now moves every day and is really active even flipping and kicking while i sit here typing this blog.( the longest blog in the history of blogging).
Even at our 20week scan bub was perfect.. well that is except it took 1 1/2hours to get the pics because like all our scans bub did not lay still at all.. i think it the whole 90 minutes we had about 5 where bub was not moving..
So i may have missed the morning sickness boat.. which some consider me lucky.. But i am 50/50 as to whether i would have preferred it that the stress I went through for 10 weeks of my pregnancy. It ok i did get the extremem tiredness and the frequent toileting bits so i did not miss out altogether.. Now i am experiencing all the other changes and absolutely loving it.
I will try to keep you informed as we go on. and i hope that I have not bored you to tears. I am just so excited that i can share this with you.. god bless you as he had blessed me with this wonderful life.
PS there are 2 other people out there who have been a really good support and have prayed for me from the get go and that is Jared and Tenille Murtha. I am really embarrassed that i forgot them wheni wrote this last night, i am sincerely sorry but you guys have been fantastic always just at the other end of the phone and having me over, praying for me and just loving me i really appreciate it. I wouldnt be here without you.
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