HI world, it has been awhile since my last blog and a few of you have been on my case.. which I do appreciate.. really i actually do..
As i sit here on night shift witha gorgeous 30 day old baby boy in my arms while his mum has a sleep because this is his party time... Please note it is 1am... I have decided that a come back is what i need to do for me, my future children and the good of the world. Well maybe not the last one but hey it sounded good.
So my priorities have been completely muddled over the last few months I have been hiding in a box of self hatred, loathing the person that i had become.. all over a bad hair cut. I really did go through a bad time it was so much more comfortable with my best friend chocolate and ronald mcdonald was almost on speed dial.. But hey maybe some new direction from a new friend is just what i need.. This new friend is a lady who just tonight I have spend 1 1/2hours talking to about ourselves and now i type here with the baby next to me. Sometimes that encouragement and motivation on a different level is what you need... A new perspective and from here it is a professional one (she has her own PT business).. Now this is not to abolish or down play the great friends that I have had and still have around me constantly encouraging me, one who we were suppose to be losing weight together and this one person who knows who she is, rings me all the time and encourages me beyond belief she is a great friend and i have been a hopeless one back, lost in self pity and selfishness to her i am forever indebted and i do love you lots...
So how am i going to do this... just because i have to.. I have a few goals... a pair of skinny jeans that i want to fit me nicely and also a friends wedding in November.. So there are 2 goals to start. so 10kgs by November is a reasonable goal i believe and is completely do-able and if by November I have lost more then hell yeah!!!!
Monday dooms day its the time to start again.. so here is to a good start next week, back to eating healthy and exercising and new outlook onlife.. less stress more fun and time to live...
So peeps heres not to staying fat and to being the biggest loser... yee hah im pumped.. Kinda - for 2am in the morning.
