Week 1 12wbt

Ok so week 1 of my 12 week body transformation... so far so good! and i am going to keep being good.
First weight is was only 2 days after commencing the program and will be every wednesday. But this wednesday I was chuffed I had not done any exercise and anyway i LOST 2.5kgs... yipee... i am a realist and now alot of that would be fluid.
Lets see how the program is going.
Food = really yummy.. i will admit i looked at a few things and I was like what with that... huh like strawberries and balsamic vinegar (there is more to the recipe) but yummo...It has been hard as I have had to cut back my portion sizes but I am pretty much back to eating the portions that I use to eat prior to moving in with Mark (sorry honey but i am kinda blaming you but i love you!) and i am sure the occasional nausea will pass.
Nexts weeks food came out and there are some things on there i have again gone what the but I will give it a go and we will go from there.
Exercise =  not so good today was really the first day that I did any. I completed my fitness test that I had to do on Monday JUST.. i ran for a minute and then nearly died definately fit into the beginner category. Today did my outdoor circuit... indoors as it was dark and had been for a 20 minute walk and it was freaking hard.. 1 thing i could not do due to my back but did everything else..
HOW I HAVE FELT -  Monday inspired, Tuesday oh so sick (nausea, Headaches, lethergy - the most exciting thing i did that day was have a  2 1/2hour nap.), Wednesday headaches, Today not so bad... but my neck is out a little too so it is time for a check in with the physio or my resident back cracker mark!!! yes helen I know..
Anyway just wanted to let you know where i was up to. was  a bit flat today did think about old friends including McDonalds and Nandos and came home to mark having Lamb with corn on the cob with butter some of the things that i do love in life but i resisted, i have not had coke nothing but water today and ate the things that i was suppose to no sneaking for ice cream or chocolate (not that i have any chocolate in the house).
Anyway thanks again for your support and I will endeavour to keep you updated at least weekly if not more often i will try to blog when i am having a bad  day ro a good one too.

Thanks heres  to be skinny at last!

love

Felicity

Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life!

so tomorrow is it, d day, armageddon you know that day that your life changes..
but mine is changing for the better, i have done all the preseason tasks that are required of me to complete this 12 week challenge i have signed up for.
I have made my goals and i have communicated my excuses (i am sure that there will be more). I have even cleared out the cupboard, fridge abd freezer (most likely threw out $30 worth of food at least but if i am going to do this i am going to do this right and i am going to give myself the best chance to suceed at the weight loss..
15kg lighter at Christmas is my 3 month goal. I can do this, no excuses no using bad luck as an out and i know i have the support of some awesome people and you know who you are as i take this amazing journey to get our lives back with some of you and with others for you to love me and support me all the way through.
I thank you in advance for the part you play and i look forward to transforming infront of your eyes.
Here to a successful 12 week body transformation!!

Here we go again

Hi all, well i know it has been a long time since I posted here. I have been in denial about the weight that I need to lose and also have kinda just forgotten all about it - on purpose.
But i have new direction. I have signed up for Michelle Bridges online 12 week body transformation. Here is have had to make committments to myself and her and now i am making a committment to you.
I know i have said this before but I have to do it. I am going to work hard and with this program and the mindset training that is all I am going to need to get myself sorted.
I will post regularly about this and keep you informed on my progress. My goal is to be 15kgs minimum lighter by christmas. so here goes nothing.. Later in the week i will be taking on the hardest challenge and throwing out a heap of high sugary food that are hiding in my pantry, fridge and freezer... that should be fun.. wish me luck..
See i told you I am still going to be the biggest loser...!

im coming back

HI world, it has been awhile since my last blog and a few of you have been on my case.. which I do appreciate.. really i actually do..

As i sit here on night shift witha gorgeous 30 day old baby boy in my arms while his mum has a sleep because this is his party time... Please note it is 1am... I have decided that a come back is what i need to do for me, my future children and the good of the world. Well maybe not the last one but hey it sounded good.

So my priorities have been completely muddled over the last few months I have been hiding in a box of self hatred, loathing the person that i had become.. all over a bad hair cut. I really did go through a bad time it was so much more comfortable with my best friend chocolate and ronald mcdonald was almost on speed dial.. But hey maybe some new direction from a new friend is just what i need.. This new friend is a lady who just tonight I have spend 1 1/2hours talking to about ourselves and now i type here with the baby next to me. Sometimes that encouragement and motivation on a different level is what you need... A new perspective and from here it is a professional one (she has her own PT business).. Now this is not to abolish or down play the great friends that I have had and still have around me constantly encouraging me, one who we were suppose to be losing weight together and this one person who knows who she is, rings me all the time and encourages me beyond belief she is a great friend and i have been a hopeless one back, lost in self pity and selfishness to her i am forever indebted and i do love you lots...

So how am i going to do this... just because i have to.. I have a few goals... a pair of skinny jeans that i want to fit me nicely and also a friends wedding in November.. So there are 2 goals to start. so 10kgs by November is a reasonable goal i believe and is completely do-able and if by November I have lost more then hell yeah!!!!

Monday dooms day its the time to start again.. so here is to a good start next week, back to eating healthy and exercising and new outlook onlife.. less stress more fun and time to live...

So peeps heres not to staying fat and to being the biggest loser... yee hah im pumped.. Kinda - for 2am in the morning.

Anyone seen my Wagon!

So i got in trouble my good friend Sonia wooped my butt tonight because i have not posted a blog for weeks and she knew this means i had not being doing what I was suppose to and had fallen off the proverbial wagon. Well its true, it just took that bad luck with the needle stick and the bad haircut to throw a massive spanner in the works. Not only have i been not exercising with the excuse i am so tired but i have also been eating extremely badly. I mean i have been through a few drive throughs in the last few weeks and not just a chicken and chips kinda meal the full hog, hungry jacks mcdonalds all have been blessed with my presents and also with my cash.

So fast food i have paid for you and blessed you with my presence but what have you done for me except for settle my craving for a day and made my hips ever so wider again. I dont know what this obsession is with take away i know they are convenient for me it is like an addiction people are addicted to cigarettes and sometimes i think that would be better atleast i wouldnt be fat and you can get patches for cigarettes????

So it has been tough i have gone back to the gym acouple of time and have attempted to continue to eat healthy but it has not been working But in saying that... i have made the decision that tomorrow is a new day and it is time to start again. ALSO i have a few goals. I have about 3 weeks and i would love to have lost a few kilos for my step daughters birthday party, a personal  goal just to make me feel good in the eyes of the opposition....

And then about 27 weeks and a good friend of mine is walking down the aisle and i want to be their smoking hot.. (not too hot dont wanna outdo the bride) but still wanna be smoking. Would love to be able to buy a size 14-16 dress for that wedding that would feel so awesome and anything smaller would be a bonus.

So how am i going to stay on track you ask.. Well for those who may not know i have hidden motivation and it is to be able to prepare myself for children so that i will be able to bear them without having to go down the long road of IVF and stuff like that which i dont really want to do (but will if it is my last resort). that is my biggest goal and just to be skinny which i have not been since i was quite young.

My struggles at the moment FATIGUE ?related to my thyroid who knows, you see for those who dont know I have hypothyroid which slows my metabolism so if that is playing up it is going to make the next few weeks tough but i am having a test done tomorrow so if it is hopefully it will be sorted in the next week which is good.

The other way i am staying on track in Sonia who i mentioned in the beginning she is kicking my butt into shape and i love her so much for her help and her inspiration. And also my mum who is always asking me how i am going what i am doing and helping with suggestions keeping me up to date with the latest fads =-P and changes in research,

Anyway people i think that i have bored you enough with my rambling this time round and hopefully here is to being able to report in a week a great result...

Take care and dont worry i will be the biggest loser.. i will i promise.

Till next time.. take care

Fricker Fricker Fricker

So I have had a good week full of its challenges.. but the end was not so good. it started with a really bad cold. with 2 days in bed and a headache and lots of snots. This lead to bad eating as i was exhausted, me being me made myself go back to work which made me feel worse but i got through. Finally made it back to the gym on Saturday after Mark left me to go on a trip to Perth on the friday night as his parents were moving house and he is still up there hopefully making it home before midnight tonight. Saturday i over did it with 30 min WII and 1 hour gym and a walk to drop a video off i was so sore by the night time. BUt i spent a solo girly night where i bummed on the couch  and watched a movie. Which was great. Sunday.. opps bugger damn way too sore so gave myself a rest but what can you do, back to healthy eating and i just need to get my water levels back up to where they were.

I dont normally do too well on my own well actually i have never really be home on my own but i have survived quite well sometimes it is nice to spend some time with yourself. as much as i miss mark it makes you love them and really appreciate how much that someone special means in your life.... especially when another huntsman comes out to say hello.. squashed- another one to felicity.

BUt today my life from my perspective turned into a nightmare... Needle stick injury at work.... never a good thing. Lucky for me she was a sweet old lady who seemed like a very respectful person and said she was unaware of any blood borne viruses which is great so all should be good. For those who dont know what i mean i stabbed myself with a needle after it had been inside someone elses skin... this can be really bad for nurses... risk of HIV, hepatitis etc etc  and it means a long wait with lots of blood tests over a 12 month period and it can put your life on hold.

So this controls your life for awhile and can be a really stressful waiting game. I was stressed out enough just today thinking my life was over and she was very unlikely to be passing anything onto me at all anyway. However it is amazing how something like this can just upset you, i cried (still crying at times), i got angry at myself not the patient and i got depressive and this was reflected in how i have treated myself today.. hungry jacks and chocolate.. chocolate which is till sitting next to me as i type this... its ok though a bag of MMs which would normally be polished mostly off is still over half full, chocolate these days leaves a weird film/taste in my mouths so one day i dont think that i will actually crave this high calorie food... which will be great. Small steps small steps.

So i sit here typing to you still pulling my hair out waiting for Mark to get home as i just want a hug and not from my dog who is cleverly positioned between my legs with her head on my thigh looking up at me asking for my dinner of vegetables.. she would eat anything, i tell you. You know when something bads happens when you want your boyfriend or your mum and it sucks because they are both 200kms away.. not so good for the emotions or the eating.

Sorry this is a long one..

The worst thing about this alot of the time these things are done because of something little and something stupid that we have done to ourselves. Just from a minor misjudgement your whole life can be in the balance... and you know what annoys me more than any of this the government want us to justify why we are worth more than $55000 per year after being out for three years.... its ridiculous but they will approve a million dollar upgrade to parliament without the proposal even being finished... We have been waiting for the agreement with the government to come through since July last year but the governement of Western Australia are a bunch of f$%# wits who should all get the sack.. ill run the government for $90000 a year theres my proposal that would save the government $100000's of dollars a year..

So i also had the worst hair cut ever on saturday and this statement is not to offend the same sex lovers out there but i look like a lesbian it is like so short with some long strands just hanging down. Not going back to that idiot again. First time great, second time crap third time completely shit house.. foole me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me, where did you get your hairdressing qualification was this when they handed them out free in the cornflakes boxes..

Anyway something again to make you feel good leaves you embarrassed and not feeling so good about yourself.

So As it goes I have literally while typing this found out mark was heading home however he was towing a car trailer behind him and at high speeds this was causing him to nearly go sideways with the car on the trailor so he nearly wasnt going to make home with a flipped car on the Mitchell Fwy.. thats just great. So he now has to go back and drop the car off the trailer and then head home so he is still atleast 2 hours away.. i am dieing for a hug right now..

In all of this though i have still come up on top, i lost 1.2kg from wednesday to Monday which is great. I had put a little weight on when i was sick from no exercise and bad eating but with some small modifications i have come out on top which i am happy with. So hopefully today wont throw me too much either, because besides playing with the dog at the beach i have done no exercise at all too upset. But on another good note i had lost 2cm from my waist and 2-3 cm off each thigh which i am really happy about and especially since i was feeling bloated the other day when my trainer pulled me aside and said lets do your measurements so i can still be happy with that, especially with my set backs.

But i am really ready to be skinny watching the Biggest Loser transformations i am ready be sexy and little the crying was the give away.

So sorry for the length congratulations if you made it to the end, have faith because with your support i am still going to be THE BIGGEST LOSER!

Till next time live life to the full....!

sickness is a killer

so my weight loss is realy struggling at the moment. Ive been sick since Sunday and temptation is a killer. I have put on a little bout 900grams in a week which is disapointing but i have not been to the gym since friday. I still feel snotty but i am going to try and do some exercise today. It funny how you start this new regime get into a groove and you fall off the wagon only to be sitting here actually missing the gym.
So ill have to get into it. and shed this 900grams by the end of the weekend. I am single for 4 days as Mark will be in Perth helping his parents move house.. unfort i have to work so i stay behind all you locals watch out if i find a big spider your coming to kill it.
So i ordered some protein shake and we are still waiting for them to arrive. My cousin is using them to help him and is using them as a supplement  he has lost 15kg in 3 months which is awesome i hope i can start saying awesome things like that. If i had lost that much weight i would be well onto my way of being under 100kg which is my first BIG goal. I have lots of little one which i have discussed with you. My next one if to be below 110kg. BUt here goes nothing. time to switch on felicity this is your skinny self talking to you inside... im drowning in here...

thanks again all, if you have any suggestions on how i can keep on track or how i can make this blog actually more interesting please let me know.

have faith im still the biggest loser.

Till next time peace and love

1st Goal triumph.

So i have reached my first goal, which was to break the 120kg mark and i have. 119.7kgs to be exact according to the Wii. Thanks for all your support and love I have been really motivated and really keen, which has been great.
So the next goal obviously is to be under 110kgs. so here goes nothing. I have a few weeks at home without having trips to perth or anything, just work. So it should be a few good weeks.
I have my first weigh in and appraisal at the gym on friday so I will let you know how i go on that front.
But i am happy with how everything is going and really enjoying not putting all that crap into my body, its amazing how good your bodystarts to feel when its not loaded with preservatives.
So here goes to being the biggest loser.

Till next time

A weekend away a weekend of hellish eating

Well, i was going really well.... I had restricted my calorie intake by cutting out fatty food, high sugary foods and drinks, and i even cut out diet coke... Now that was an accomplishment on its own but easy in the end.
But the dreaded weekend in Perth was looming and I knew it was going to be challenging.
Friday I was suppose to go the gym after i left work but because some people just shouldnt have children (sorry if that offends but when you work in this industry unfortunately its how you think) i left an hour late  so no gym =-( and still we left late. Unfortunately we had bad food for dinner, mine was of the chicken variety but tasted good a taste that i had and hadnot missed.
Saturday was BUSY!!! Running around like mad hens unfortunately food had the label of easy -  lunch was a first birthday which was fine we had lean steaks and here i was thinking yes there'll be heaps of salad but no the smallest garden salad in the world expected to serve 17 adults let alone kids and then a whole array of creamy salads which dont do much for the weight loss, and no breads or anything so it was creamy salads. Dinner was another story but ill tell you it wasnt good either....
Sunday no better BUSY BUSY we were supposed to be hiking for a Venturer Hike we were planning but ended up spending all morning in the car.. now i am not sure but can pissed off and extremely grumpy burn off calories?? If so i should have burned off thousands.. but thats another story.
Food choices and opportunities were not so good again today lancelin is where we ended up at lunch time and i had a chicken and salad roll you say thats fine except it was smothered in the finer oil or Marg.....but there arent many more options past that.
Then we had our Nephews 5th birthday arvo tea - now grumpy must have burnt calories because i was hungry by the time i got here and of course there were a few carrot and celery sticks but mainly stuff that would have made Jenny Craig cringe... well maybe not that bad, by this stage I was at the stage of what the hell the weekend has been a blow out why limit myself to carotine and water. Dont get me wrong i didnt roll out of there like i was going to explode but i did eat a few of the things i shouldnt of. That night we ended up staying in perth for life saving reasons... coz we would not have driven home safely if we hadnt and mum made chicken cacciatore which i love and was loving the pasta.. tisk tisk i know.
Monday we cruised back down to the home town stopping and visiting Mez who gave me a heap of stuff (thank you so muich) and we ended up getting home at 130pm... with red rooster in tow!
You ask why this was so bad and why we couldnt have just gone to the shops and made lunch.... Im on stinking night shift... so stop calling me  =-) ha ha jj.
So ate then slept for 4 hours then onto night shift... which is where i am now, not busy, havent exercised and am sitting here nibbling away on... GRAPES.. ( i know you thought I was going to say chocolate) Back on the diet we go and the body has started its detoxing again already i can feel it.
Not sure where i sit on the scales i weight myself this morning and at night at there was a difference of like 1kg but ill take tonights (as this would be my morning) which was the lighter and even after all that bad food and no exercise I only put on a kilo which i personally think was pretty good going, i was expecting to come home with oompa loompa status or something.....
Anyway i am not disheartened, but honestly a little dissapointed that life can get so carried away its upsets all you are doing to better yourself.  BUT DO NOT BE CONCERNED... I am so going the distance coz this kid is still the Biggest Loser!

Till next time Felicitations!

The Biggest Loser!

Im going to be the biggest loser! and no i am not a contestant on the show. From previous blogs you can see that i am a big girl and i carry alot of weight. I have just joined the gym and so far loving it. I am doing just cardio to help me get my cardiac fitness up before i start pumping up my guns.... My stats before i started well there differ between home and the gym. Gym weight 122.4kg and at home on the Wii 121.7. Today i weight in at 120.2kg on the Wii.  yipee down 1.5kgs heres to keeping it up and shedding lots of weight. Goal weight you ask well people tell me that according to my BMI 60kgs is where i need to be, that is 50% of my weight gone. Id be happy when i got to 70kg overall but 60 would be fantastic if that is where my body would be comfy.
I see this is a way of getting out and telling my friends and family just how  big i really am and of course any other person who wanders onto my page.
My life needs to change, i need to save my life. i spend so much time saving the lives of so many others and now is my time.
If you want please post and keep me accountable i need all the support and tough love that i can get. This is going to be a long journey but it is a must because i want to see my future children get married.

much love to all.

(PS i love the biggest loser australia is it so the best)

Packed to the Rafters

With mum and Rhys at my house we decided to go fishing.. but looking back at it i asked Mark if we could go fishing last weekend for this Saturday.. bugger i hate early mornings. Anyway Rhys piked and it was the three of us and our beautiful dog Ruby (and yes she is a red cloud kelpie - Mark named her before i met him) it was really nice not as still as it normally is but if was still lovely. Mum and i walked up the beach for about 20 minutes then back again with Ruby running in front then she decided it would be fun to round me up, so she would come pelting down the beach at me full  sprint and run round me just missing my feet and legs and then she would run around acouple of times like you cant catch me. This went on atleast 8-10 times on our walk. When we got back mark had rigged the rods and we threw them in only to not get any bites what so ever (im never so unlucky when it comes to fishing) we could even see the darn fish swimming in the waves jumping up and eating the burley but they were not interested in the lovely white bait attached to our rods. We ended up 4WD up the beach for about 10km and then heading home for Marks pancakes. The after the boys fixed Rhys's car we headed down the Dunsborough to look at a Kayak - a hobby me and mark would like to get into. But were let down by the lack of stock they had on display. But were happy with the end result of lunch at the dunsborough Bakery which is completely worth the drive. Rhys and Mum left at just after one and we had a quick nanna nap after our early morning to head then into Bunbury to buy a lawnmower.. desperately needed as we mowed 2 weeks ago and in some places where the grass is not burnt from the sun it uis already way to long. 4 wheelbarrows full of clippings later the front lawn in done.. it was insane i am telling you. Thats my day really it was packed to the rafters but it was not to bad and it gets better we have hired a movie and as i type Mark is cooking me dinner, Life doesnt get better really.

Day 1 & 2

So well, missed day 1 and 2 great start to new blog but I will give you the run down. So Thursday I was suppose to be going to the movies to see Little Fockers with my friend, but unfortunately she had to cancel, so i went to Perth a day early. I ended up having a nice dinner at Garden City Shopping Centre with my mum and then going to the movies and seeing Morning Glory which was hilariously funny. I love spending time with my mum, she is always so supportive and we always have a good laugh and a good conversation when she is not telling me off and slapping me across the arm for doing something or swearing. I ended up having a sleep over with mum to both of us curled up on the floor of the lounge room and chilled and slept there.
This whole taking photos thing has been a bit slow completely forgot today so anyway i am trying my hardest to get better.
The next day was visiting day. Firstly i went and visited my friend Helen and her little baby girl who is 10 months who i have not seen for like 4 months or something. That was so good, 2 hours felt like 5 minutes. I had my 4-6 monthly cup of tea( you see i seem to only drink tea when i am at Helens house besides that i dont ever really drink it.... I bought a box of 25 teabags when I first moved in with Mark and they are still in my cupboard 16 months later with maybe 4 taken out of them and yes not by me but visitors.) little bub slept late but i got a quick cuddle and enjoyed watching her crawl round the room and stand up on her own and make her way around the table on her own the normal things that a 10 monther does really. Then it was time for my next very exciting adventure.
I visited PMH NICU where i use to work.. i love that place and miss working there incredibly. Thinking about going back part time -  you see i work in a country hospital large for being country really, in a little paeds ward which i like but its the rest of the hospital that annoys me. Anyway i loved working with the sick little babies so hopefully in the next couple of months i may be able to go back. The boss said i could come back at any time especially since she said that they need people who could look after ventilated babies. Anyway i caught up with heaps of people which was great i loved seeing them and i was there for over an hour, looking at little babies just wanting to reposition them, suction there ventilator tubes etc etc... youd understand if youd worked there. I even got tingles as i walked in.. oh well Mum always said i was really happy there. Dilema.... love living the country life but miss the city work.....
When i headed back the my mums it was time to help mum around the house, we did a little then we went and put a tallboy on layby.. i need one of them i have no drawers so i hang absolutely everything... no not our underwear and socks i have a small set of drawers but i am sick of coat hangers....
Then Vegemite and Cheese sausages for dinner and mums.... they were actually really nice.  Then mum and my brother came down to my house to stay for the night. Which was great love having them down here and it gave my mum a break from my grumpy father and whinging sister(she was sick). By the time we left and got down  here it was too late for anything we pretty much stared blankely at each other and then decided to go to bed. It was a nice couple of days i love it actually the worst part was leaving mark at home and not having him with me.. but it had to happen and things would not have been the same if he was there... loved it.

Welcome

Welcome to my Blog. I have decided to start a blog to follow in the footsteps of some of my friends. To blog and take photos everyday to help me appreciate the small things in my life and enjoy it so much more. I hope you enjoy my blog and maybe you can help me also. One thing that i will blog about is my weight loss (please keep me accountable) as this is a big journey for me and it will be fairly challenging most probably the hardest thing in my life so far. I hope you have a great day and i look forward to sharing my experiences with you.