So i got in trouble my good friend Sonia wooped my butt tonight because i have not posted a blog for weeks and she knew this means i had not being doing what I was suppose to and had fallen off the proverbial wagon. Well its true, it just took that bad luck with the needle stick and the bad haircut to throw a massive spanner in the works. Not only have i been not exercising with the excuse i am so tired but i have also been eating extremely badly. I mean i have been through a few drive throughs in the last few weeks and not just a chicken and chips kinda meal the full hog, hungry jacks mcdonalds all have been blessed with my presents and also with my cash.
So fast food i have paid for you and blessed you with my presence but what have you done for me except for settle my craving for a day and made my hips ever so wider again. I dont know what this obsession is with take away i know they are convenient for me it is like an addiction people are addicted to cigarettes and sometimes i think that would be better atleast i wouldnt be fat and you can get patches for cigarettes????
So it has been tough i have gone back to the gym acouple of time and have attempted to continue to eat healthy but it has not been working But in saying that... i have made the decision that tomorrow is a new day and it is time to start again. ALSO i have a few goals. I have about 3 weeks and i would love to have lost a few kilos for my step daughters birthday party, a personal goal just to make me feel good in the eyes of the opposition....
And then about 27 weeks and a good friend of mine is walking down the aisle and i want to be their smoking hot.. (not too hot dont wanna outdo the bride) but still wanna be smoking. Would love to be able to buy a size 14-16 dress for that wedding that would feel so awesome and anything smaller would be a bonus.
So how am i going to stay on track you ask.. Well for those who may not know i have hidden motivation and it is to be able to prepare myself for children so that i will be able to bear them without having to go down the long road of IVF and stuff like that which i dont really want to do (but will if it is my last resort). that is my biggest goal and just to be skinny which i have not been since i was quite young.
My struggles at the moment FATIGUE ?related to my thyroid who knows, you see for those who dont know I have hypothyroid which slows my metabolism so if that is playing up it is going to make the next few weeks tough but i am having a test done tomorrow so if it is hopefully it will be sorted in the next week which is good.
The other way i am staying on track in Sonia who i mentioned in the beginning she is kicking my butt into shape and i love her so much for her help and her inspiration. And also my mum who is always asking me how i am going what i am doing and helping with suggestions keeping me up to date with the latest fads =-P and changes in research,
Anyway people i think that i have bored you enough with my rambling this time round and hopefully here is to being able to report in a week a great result...
Take care and dont worry i will be the biggest loser.. i will i promise.
Till next time.. take care
