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So I have had a good week full of its challenges.. but the end was not so good. it started with a really bad cold. with 2 days in bed and a headache and lots of snots. This lead to bad eating as i was exhausted, me being me made myself go back to work which made me feel worse but i got through. Finally made it back to the gym on Saturday after Mark left me to go on a trip to Perth on the friday night as his parents were moving house and he is still up there hopefully making it home before midnight tonight. Saturday i over did it with 30 min WII and 1 hour gym and a walk to drop a video off i was so sore by the night time. BUt i spent a solo girly night where i bummed on the couch  and watched a movie. Which was great. Sunday.. opps bugger damn way too sore so gave myself a rest but what can you do, back to healthy eating and i just need to get my water levels back up to where they were.

I dont normally do too well on my own well actually i have never really be home on my own but i have survived quite well sometimes it is nice to spend some time with yourself. as much as i miss mark it makes you love them and really appreciate how much that someone special means in your life.... especially when another huntsman comes out to say hello.. squashed- another one to felicity.

BUt today my life from my perspective turned into a nightmare... Needle stick injury at work.... never a good thing. Lucky for me she was a sweet old lady who seemed like a very respectful person and said she was unaware of any blood borne viruses which is great so all should be good. For those who dont know what i mean i stabbed myself with a needle after it had been inside someone elses skin... this can be really bad for nurses... risk of HIV, hepatitis etc etc  and it means a long wait with lots of blood tests over a 12 month period and it can put your life on hold.

So this controls your life for awhile and can be a really stressful waiting game. I was stressed out enough just today thinking my life was over and she was very unlikely to be passing anything onto me at all anyway. However it is amazing how something like this can just upset you, i cried (still crying at times), i got angry at myself not the patient and i got depressive and this was reflected in how i have treated myself today.. hungry jacks and chocolate.. chocolate which is till sitting next to me as i type this... its ok though a bag of MMs which would normally be polished mostly off is still over half full, chocolate these days leaves a weird film/taste in my mouths so one day i dont think that i will actually crave this high calorie food... which will be great. Small steps small steps.

So i sit here typing to you still pulling my hair out waiting for Mark to get home as i just want a hug and not from my dog who is cleverly positioned between my legs with her head on my thigh looking up at me asking for my dinner of vegetables.. she would eat anything, i tell you. You know when something bads happens when you want your boyfriend or your mum and it sucks because they are both 200kms away.. not so good for the emotions or the eating.

Sorry this is a long one..

The worst thing about this alot of the time these things are done because of something little and something stupid that we have done to ourselves. Just from a minor misjudgement your whole life can be in the balance... and you know what annoys me more than any of this the government want us to justify why we are worth more than $55000 per year after being out for three years.... its ridiculous but they will approve a million dollar upgrade to parliament without the proposal even being finished... We have been waiting for the agreement with the government to come through since July last year but the governement of Western Australia are a bunch of f$%# wits who should all get the sack.. ill run the government for $90000 a year theres my proposal that would save the government $100000's of dollars a year..

So i also had the worst hair cut ever on saturday and this statement is not to offend the same sex lovers out there but i look like a lesbian it is like so short with some long strands just hanging down. Not going back to that idiot again. First time great, second time crap third time completely shit house.. foole me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me, where did you get your hairdressing qualification was this when they handed them out free in the cornflakes boxes..

Anyway something again to make you feel good leaves you embarrassed and not feeling so good about yourself.

So As it goes I have literally while typing this found out mark was heading home however he was towing a car trailer behind him and at high speeds this was causing him to nearly go sideways with the car on the trailor so he nearly wasnt going to make home with a flipped car on the Mitchell Fwy.. thats just great. So he now has to go back and drop the car off the trailer and then head home so he is still atleast 2 hours away.. i am dieing for a hug right now..

In all of this though i have still come up on top, i lost 1.2kg from wednesday to Monday which is great. I had put a little weight on when i was sick from no exercise and bad eating but with some small modifications i have come out on top which i am happy with. So hopefully today wont throw me too much either, because besides playing with the dog at the beach i have done no exercise at all too upset. But on another good note i had lost 2cm from my waist and 2-3 cm off each thigh which i am really happy about and especially since i was feeling bloated the other day when my trainer pulled me aside and said lets do your measurements so i can still be happy with that, especially with my set backs.

But i am really ready to be skinny watching the Biggest Loser transformations i am ready be sexy and little the crying was the give away.

So sorry for the length congratulations if you made it to the end, have faith because with your support i am still going to be THE BIGGEST LOSER!

Till next time live life to the full....!

sickness is a killer

so my weight loss is realy struggling at the moment. Ive been sick since Sunday and temptation is a killer. I have put on a little bout 900grams in a week which is disapointing but i have not been to the gym since friday. I still feel snotty but i am going to try and do some exercise today. It funny how you start this new regime get into a groove and you fall off the wagon only to be sitting here actually missing the gym.
So ill have to get into it. and shed this 900grams by the end of the weekend. I am single for 4 days as Mark will be in Perth helping his parents move house.. unfort i have to work so i stay behind all you locals watch out if i find a big spider your coming to kill it.
So i ordered some protein shake and we are still waiting for them to arrive. My cousin is using them to help him and is using them as a supplement  he has lost 15kg in 3 months which is awesome i hope i can start saying awesome things like that. If i had lost that much weight i would be well onto my way of being under 100kg which is my first BIG goal. I have lots of little one which i have discussed with you. My next one if to be below 110kg. BUt here goes nothing. time to switch on felicity this is your skinny self talking to you inside... im drowning in here...

thanks again all, if you have any suggestions on how i can keep on track or how i can make this blog actually more interesting please let me know.

have faith im still the biggest loser.

Till next time peace and love